Just had the most fucked up dream ever abbout kissing Sabar's girlfriend. What the hell is wrong with me???? Was I really that pissed about hiw muxh I've worked hard to hold back with Sabar that I'd do something like kiss his own gf in front of him??? Just a recap, I'm in a zombie apocalypse, an inverted one.. where the zombies come out in broad daylight and they're gone at night. In the day I helped out my family board the doors to keep the monsters away from the house, then this absolute badass of a man who my family knows about, pulls up on the driveway and said he'd help us out For some reason, the drive scene was cut and suddenly I was in a somewhat university at night, I was saying goodbye to Enzo and Sabar doing my usual dapping up, when I was gonna reach for a hug with Sabar, his gf showed up to eye us and I hurtfully backed off. I shook her hand to say goodbye to her out of spite and saw them off in this huge bus of an angkot. I look at Sabar for a moment hoping he'd at least spare me a glance and he did. He looked back and waved at me just like he always does. I'm not sure about this next scene, but it involved 2 places, first was a bakery and second was a japanese/korean/russian restaurant. In the bakery I was alone, buying a matcha sandwich for myself. A call comes in and it's Faiq, with some background music that was blaring. I answered with a smile and Faiq greeted me first, quizing me to guess where he was "hey, guess where I am right now!" I mused him a little by thinking a bit "hmmm well with that background music..." "AW MAN, OFC YOU GUESSED IT," he yelled a bit dumfounded at himself for even asking the question in the first place. "Yeah, I'm at the gym..." He said in defeat. "Hey hey heey, don't steal my answer." I said playfully. With a little laugh a realized he isn't saying anything anymore, probably doing some reps... Cuts to the restaurant. I'm sitting with Enzo and Sabar, talking about mundane things and the place was small and busy, some familiar faces in the crowd... There was dysen and a few of his friends downing some sushi and asking for more from the staff, I thought about how he'd pay for all that but oh well. On a bar table where you could grill stuff yourself, was Caca eating some kind of fried rice mixed with some curry of some sorts with a huge chicken leg, I thought to myself what kind of cuisine is that... Was it russian? Panning back to my table, everyone was done with their food and we're all standing up, it was a peculiar stance really, I'm not sure how it happened but this is the part where I kissed Sabar's gf. Just fyi I have no idea what she looks like, so I think my brain just constructed a pretty girl. "Okay then, how about you try to pretend to kill me?" I asked the gf that was holding a revolver, I'm not sure if it was empty or not, but I'm sure it was for a previous game of russian roulette. Standing face to face with her, a standoff if you will, i was a few feet away from her. She aimed the gun at me and said some line, I reciprocates by walking towards her. Sabar and Enzo were on the sidelines spectating the scene. I walked up to her to the point where her gun was directed on my forehead. "What, not gonna pull the trigger?" I taunted her. As we stared at each other for a while, I took a step forward, and another. Cornering her to a wall. She was passive, probably what she's like with Sabar anyways. I held on to the gun with her and moved it aside for me to get closer to her face. I stared at her dead in the eyes and kissed her right in front of Sabar and Enzo. The kiss wasn't violent, it was a chaste kiss filled with pure spite that I didn't bother to close my eyes when our lips met. She closed her eyes as she was pinned on the wall, so THIS is the type Sabar's into? No fucking way... I backed off and walked away, Sabar and Enzo were staring at the scene and had a dnd like convo, "well she did have advantage," "that's a charm roll for Jeela most definitely." I walked pass them and sat next to Caca who was technically cooking up some fried rice. I asked her if I could have one of the chicken legs and she told me to just go ahead. I ate one and promptly left the restaurant. Panning back to the bakery, the call still on with Faiq on the other end of the line... "Since you're not saying anything at the moment, mind lending me an ear?" I asked, A grunting sound was heard like he was lisfting weights or doing some exercise, "mhm, go ahead. I'm doing some reps anyways." I smiled and started to talk about the night's events... The dream ended when I started to call Faiq, my prediction is that this was a flashback type story, where the end was the start of the dream, and the actual start was somewhere in the middle. I'm not really certain about that zombie part tho, it seems VERY out of place... But I guess dreams will be dreams, and it is what it is. Is this some kind of allegory that I'm okay with kissing girls? Even if it means that I hate them so much I'm willing to kiss them in public? Or is this me coping with the fact that my long lasting crush already has plans with another girl? What is this... God what was that dream????
Dream interpretation can be a complex process, as dreams often blend various facets of our emotions, experiences, and subconscious thoughts. From your description, this dream appears to be a rich tapestry woven together by your current feelings about relationships, personal conflicts, and perhaps unacknowledged desires. Here’s an interpretation of key themes and symbols in your dream:
The setting of a zombie apocalypse inversely occurring at daytime might symbolize feelings of vulnerability and anxiety in your waking life. Typically, zombies can represent thoughts or feelings that seem overwhelming, unyielding, and lifeless – possibly reflective of your worries about losing control or seeing your friendships potentially erode into conflict. The daylight signifies a lack of hiding; you may feel exposed during the day when you face your fears head-on.
Kissing your friend's girlfriend in the dream might represent feelings of resentment or jealousy. Since you're harboring feelings for Sabar, this action could stem from deep-seated frustrations about your own feelings for someone who is unavailable to you. The kiss could symbolize a form of rebellion against the norms of friendship and loyalty, showcasing the contrast between your suppressed urges and what you wish you could express. The fact that it was executed with spite speaks volumes about your internal emotional conflict – maybe it symbolizes your desire to assert power or challenge the status quo of your social dynamics.
The interactions within the bakery and restaurant settings demonstrate your ongoing friendships and how you connect with your peers. It’s interesting that you spoke about mundane things with Sabar and Enzo, suggesting that there are elements of normalcy in your relations. However, the transition from camaraderie to a confrontation with Sabar’s girlfriend hints at a brewing disharmony in your wakeful relationships. The playful teasing with Faiq indicates a longing for communication and support, perhaps revealing that you’re seeking validation from your friends in dealing with your complex feelings.
The imagined confrontation with Sabar's girlfriend holding a gun introduces themes of danger and vulnerability. Guns in dreams often symbolize power dynamics or the potential for emotional harm. Your taunting her to pull the trigger could indicate a desire to challenge these dynamics, or perhaps your willingness to confront uncomfortable truths about your feelings. Walking her towards a wall symbolizes feeling cornered or trapped by your circumstances, where there's no escape from your emotional turmoil.
Food, often a symbol of nourishment and comfort, appears in your dream in differing contexts (the sandwich and fried rice). This might suggest the mixed emotional states you’re experiencing. Food can symbolize how you nourish your social relationships – whether it’s sustaining friendships or feeling like something is lacking in those connections.
The cyclical nature of your dream – beginning and ending with the call to Faiq – emphasizes a sense of looking back, processing your feelings, and seeking support. It reflects introspection as you try to cope with the complexities of your emotional landscape and the relationships you are navigating.
Overall, your dream could highlight multiple things: your frustrations with unrequited feelings, the desire to assert yourself in a contentious relational dynamic, and the need to process the complexities of friendship amidst jealousy and desire. The dream suggests a strong need to reconcile your real emotions regarding attraction and rivalry with Sabar.
It might be helpful to talk with friends you trust about these feelings, or consider what it means to you that you're experiencing this turmoil. Additionally, confronting these emotions reflects a deeper understanding of your desires and needs, allowing you to potentially find clarity in your relationships moving forward.